2/20/13

okay well i am on a spiritual high from all the emails i just got. i
am sooooo happy for kieranªª and when dad was telling me how heavenly
father will always help me. i know that is 100 percent true. oh man
thanks so much for the letters! they make me feel so good. mom before
i forget i haven't got those packages yet, but i will probably soon, i
haven't taken hardly any pictures sorry. , thanks a ton and for caring
so much. thanks so much for your love and especially your email today.
i really don't have very much time today so its gonna be really short.
things get better for me every week. i am starting to feel comfortable
and am loving life more and more! i am soo blessed to be able to have
this experience.

i love elder cardenas, i am so lucky to have him as my trainer ha.
well this week was.. well I'm not sure. it got warmer, not warm but
just not cold like it was. the streets are getting a little better,
than giant ponds of water and mud, yes i have skipped rocks in the
street for fun. but yeah. i love the sky here.
yesterday was Sunday, we were expecting tons of investigators cause
the last 2 weeks were cold and yesterday was sunny. and.... we had 2.
its been really hard for us to swallow . but oh well we will have to
work harder i guess. we feel like we are doing all we can but people
just don't show. but we also had some really good things happen this
week. any so church the speakers at church didn't show so of course
elder cardenas and i were given the job. ha yeah so i had to go first,
winging it is hard enough in English but harder in Spanish and really
scary but i got up there and just said how i felt, cause i had felt
the spirit so strong during sacrament, i always feel it so strong
during sacrament, something i hadn't noticed as well before me mission.
anyway i got up there and felt the spirit really strong and was able
to give a pretty good talk or i guess testimony. everyone said i did
really good.

one thing i have felt that is really important is for me to bear my
testimony a lot and powerfully during lessons. we of course cause i
cant say a ton but i can do that. but also because i have been given a
testimony or a witness of the truthfulness of this and it is an
obligation to bare it and tell people. its just really hard and makes
me not want to do it cause it doesn't seem like it helps or they still
don't except it. but iv done my part and its not my fault when they some
day figure out it really was true.

anyway i gotta go. sorry. i love you all so much. i am doing great, I'm
actually really happy. i love the gospel. read the book of Mormon
everyday.

thanks so much for your love and prayers. i know i forgot to say about
a million things but oh well.
goodbye from the border